♥ Annisa Firrayan ; my journey towards perfection…

I remember during the exam period, I made an excuse to spend a limited time on Allah . My MA’s are not fully ticked. There are gaps here and there.

Now, when the exam is finally over. I should get back on track, spend more time on building my relationship with Allah . But it seems like there are so much Dunyawi entertainments waiting ahead of me (MUJAHADAH TU PERLU!!)  and just today that I realized that I’m slipping a bit.

What made me realize?

Having a relationship problem with people around me.

Having bad thoughts about people I loved.

This is not right. I know this is not right.

I said my Istighfar again and again. I told my heart; “Husnuzhon Ya Qalbi” repeatedly. Hoping that all the evil negative thoughts in my head would vanish and will stop from ‘polluting’ my heart!

Then, I remember an ukh shared her story why she encountered problems with people around her. She said that, she has slowly left her daily ‘ibadah like not reciting the Mathurat, not reciting Al-Quran and all. After she found the problem, she quickly solved it by getting back on track. Doing all the daily ‘ibadah as usual. And then, things get better each day.

It seems to me that, I should get back on my feet. And I definitely get what Allah is trying to teach me. Let that be between Allah and I.

So people, whenever you feel miserable, whenever you’re facing problems with people and things around you, it might be that Allah is testing your patience or Allah is trying to teach you some lesson there.

When a glass is full with water, it will overflow. So, imagine, when your relationship with Allah is as full as the water in the glass, then Allah will help you in doing your daily work and help you to strengthen your relationship with people around you, just like the water that is overflow.

Pemujuk hatiku

Everytime, you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That you’re so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insya Allah … Insya Allah … Insya Allah ..
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insya Allah … Insya Allah … Insya Allah ..
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insya Allah … Insya Allah … Insya Allah ..
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
Ooo Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way… Showed me the way…
Insya Allah … Insya Allah … Insya Allah ..
Insya Allah we’ll find the way

Insya Allah … Insya Allah … Insya Allah ..
Insya Allah we’ll find the way.

Jazakillahu Khayran Kathiran Ukh Sanie J

… for the great chat we had together!

Sanie J nikmat sahabat Allah berikan kepadaku xx

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